I can do this!

Hey!

I am not sick anymore, YEY! I always get this horrible cough, but I am glad it is over and now I can sing again! Gosh...I missed singing! :D

Life has been a bit different lately, because I don't go to school anymore. I have to get used to my new routine which is...go to the gym at eight thirty, then go to the library at ten o'clock and stay there for the rest of the day, and then come back home all tired and exhausted. This is going to be my routine for one month and then I will have time to relax and do whatever I want! I just wish I had the patience to wait that long....-_-

Anyways, I keep saying to myself, it is all going to be over SOON! Patience, patience, patience! At least, now I know what I would like to study in the future. I want to be a photographer tadaaa!! :D At first, I wasn't sure about it, because I thought that I am not good enough. Well, it is obvious that I am not an expert yet, but I know that I can be a good photographer if I want to. It is something that I enjoy and I would love to learn new things. Besides, I could at least try and see what happens. There is nothing wrong with that, is there?

Another thing that must have been stopping me is other people's opinions, especially my parents'. Maybe I have been thinking too much what my older siblings do and studying photography doesn't sound that "fancy" let's say. It sounds so stupid now that I think about it! I mean there is no point studying something that you hate, just because your family wants you to be an architect, for example. I am glad that my parents don't show that much what they think about my plans...even though I know that my dad wants me to get married quickly and have a family, but that's not what I am planning to do, at least not yet! I am only 18, let's not forget that! :p

Everything used to be so much easier as a child, now I have to make my own decisions...oh crap! It's a bit scary. Moving to Finland was a piece of cake compared to all this. I don't even know where I want to study...well, actually I have an idea, but I am not sure if it's too early to say anything. Oh well...what the heck, I will just spit it out. I have been thinking about two countries either Spain or Italy. Both of them sound really nice, but there is no need to hurry for anything at this point.

I tend to change my mind a lot, but I don't think I will change my mind about this. Maybe photography is what I am meant to do, who knows! We will see :)

Karpalo