Hey!
I am not sick anymore, YEY! I always get this horrible cough, but I am glad it is over and now I can sing again! Gosh...I missed singing! :D
Life has been a bit different lately, because I don't go to school anymore. I have to get used to my new routine which is...go to the gym at eight thirty, then go to the library at ten o'clock and stay there for the rest of the day, and then come back home all tired and exhausted. This is going to be my routine for one month and then I will have time to relax and do whatever I want! I just wish I had the patience to wait that long....-_-
Anyways, I keep saying to myself, it is all going to be over SOON! Patience, patience, patience! At least, now I know what I would like to study in the future. I want to be a photographer tadaaa!! :D At first, I wasn't sure about it, because I thought that I am not good enough. Well, it is obvious that I am not an expert yet, but I know that I can be a good photographer if I want to. It is something that I enjoy and I would love to learn new things. Besides, I could at least try and see what happens. There is nothing wrong with that, is there?
Another thing that must have been stopping me is other people's opinions, especially my parents'. Maybe I have been thinking too much what my older siblings do and studying photography doesn't sound that "fancy" let's say. It sounds so stupid now that I think about it! I mean there is no point studying something that you hate, just because your family wants you to be an architect, for example. I am glad that my parents don't show that much what they think about my plans...even though I know that my dad wants me to get married quickly and have a family, but that's not what I am planning to do, at least not yet! I am only 18, let's not forget that! :p
Everything used to be so much easier as a child, now I have to make my own decisions...oh crap! It's a bit scary. Moving to Finland was a piece of cake compared to all this. I don't even know where I want to study...well, actually I have an idea, but I am not sure if it's too early to say anything. Oh well...what the heck, I will just spit it out. I have been thinking about two countries either Spain or Italy. Both of them sound really nice, but there is no need to hurry for anything at this point.
I tend to change my mind a lot, but I don't think I will change my mind about this. Maybe photography is what I am meant to do, who knows! We will see :)
Karpalo
Friday, February 24, 2012
Saturday, February 18, 2012
I love alcohol...NOT!
Hey!
I feel bad that I haven't written anything! I feel so sick today that studying for my exams doesn't sound very good to me at this point. Last week I was a bit busy, because I was studying and preparing my costume for penkkarit!
Penkkarit is a celebration for our last day of school where all senior students (or abit in finnish ) dress up in different costumes. We also get a ride on a truck and go to different schools to throw candy to the younger kids. It was a lot of fun but I have to admit that I was't wearing enough clothes and that's how I got sick. Being on that truck while the temperature was below zero, was an unforgetable experience!:P
Later after the truck ride was over, we had the day free and in the evening we went to a bar...oh yes! That was the first time I went to a finnish bar or club, so I was a bit scared of what was about to come. It was a lot how I expected it to be, but I am still a bit shocked! People were drinking way too much and I can't say that I didn't drink at all, but I knew when I had to stop.
On the other hand I had a great time, but I was trying not to pay attention on what other people were doing around me. Almost everybody was drunk or a bit tipsy. There were broken glasses everywhere and the smell of vomit in the bathrooms was horrible. Greek parties are nothing like that. Maybe if you go to a club in Mykonos things get out of control, but in general greek people know how to have fun without the alcohol.
At least now I know how finnish people party and I also know that I don't want to act the same way. I just feel sorry that people can't control themselves when it comes to alcohol.
I don't know if you agree or disagree with me, but please let me know what your opinion is. I would be glad to know what other people think about this.
Have a great Saturday night! :)
Karpalo
I was a hippie! :D Peace!
I feel bad that I haven't written anything! I feel so sick today that studying for my exams doesn't sound very good to me at this point. Last week I was a bit busy, because I was studying and preparing my costume for penkkarit!
Penkkarit is a celebration for our last day of school where all senior students (or abit in finnish ) dress up in different costumes. We also get a ride on a truck and go to different schools to throw candy to the younger kids. It was a lot of fun but I have to admit that I was't wearing enough clothes and that's how I got sick. Being on that truck while the temperature was below zero, was an unforgetable experience!:P
Later after the truck ride was over, we had the day free and in the evening we went to a bar...oh yes! That was the first time I went to a finnish bar or club, so I was a bit scared of what was about to come. It was a lot how I expected it to be, but I am still a bit shocked! People were drinking way too much and I can't say that I didn't drink at all, but I knew when I had to stop.
On the other hand I had a great time, but I was trying not to pay attention on what other people were doing around me. Almost everybody was drunk or a bit tipsy. There were broken glasses everywhere and the smell of vomit in the bathrooms was horrible. Greek parties are nothing like that. Maybe if you go to a club in Mykonos things get out of control, but in general greek people know how to have fun without the alcohol.
At least now I know how finnish people party and I also know that I don't want to act the same way. I just feel sorry that people can't control themselves when it comes to alcohol.
I don't know if you agree or disagree with me, but please let me know what your opinion is. I would be glad to know what other people think about this.
Have a great Saturday night! :)
Karpalo
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Get a job.... Check! :)
Hi!
I almost forgot that I have a blog hehe. Anyways, I have good news to share with you! I got a job today and I am super duper excited! This is my first REAL job and I hope that I don't mess up! :P I was so excited that I called everybody to let them know that I am officially employed! Hihihihi! Can't stop smiling! :)
So everything seems to be going well for now! Maybe some people think I am weird that I get so excited about something like this, but I really want to earn my own money. I am still really thankfull that my parents support me in every way ( including financial help), but things are changing and I need to grow up and learn how to support myself.
Lately I have been thinking how young people in Finland take so many things for granted! In Greece people who are my age or older, can't even consider of moving to another place without having their parents to support them financially. When people here say that it's difficult to get a job, it pisses me off because that is not true! The thing is that people have way too many expectations about what kind of job they are looking for, whereas in Greece you are lucky if you get a job, even if it doesn't pay that well.
People just like to complain about everything sometimes. For example in Finland we get to have one warm meal at school for free and still there are many students who don't eat there because the food isn't good enough! Are you kidding me?? Okay, I can't say it is the best quality ever, but I don't care. In Greece we didn't even have proper heating in our school and students here complain about the food? That is ridiculous!
Also when students here get every month four-hundred euros to pay the rent and food, you still hear people complaining about how that amount of money isn't enough! Of course it isn't enough you idiot if you spend it on alcohol and other stupid stuff. Sometimes I wonder if people think before they say these things.
I wish I could make people understand how lucky they are to have all these things the government offers. It's a pity that no matter how well things are around you, there is always something to complain about. Maybe it is us who should learn to be satisfied with the things we have!
Karpalo
I almost forgot that I have a blog hehe. Anyways, I have good news to share with you! I got a job today and I am super duper excited! This is my first REAL job and I hope that I don't mess up! :P I was so excited that I called everybody to let them know that I am officially employed! Hihihihi! Can't stop smiling! :)
So everything seems to be going well for now! Maybe some people think I am weird that I get so excited about something like this, but I really want to earn my own money. I am still really thankfull that my parents support me in every way ( including financial help), but things are changing and I need to grow up and learn how to support myself.
Lately I have been thinking how young people in Finland take so many things for granted! In Greece people who are my age or older, can't even consider of moving to another place without having their parents to support them financially. When people here say that it's difficult to get a job, it pisses me off because that is not true! The thing is that people have way too many expectations about what kind of job they are looking for, whereas in Greece you are lucky if you get a job, even if it doesn't pay that well.
People just like to complain about everything sometimes. For example in Finland we get to have one warm meal at school for free and still there are many students who don't eat there because the food isn't good enough! Are you kidding me?? Okay, I can't say it is the best quality ever, but I don't care. In Greece we didn't even have proper heating in our school and students here complain about the food? That is ridiculous!
Also when students here get every month four-hundred euros to pay the rent and food, you still hear people complaining about how that amount of money isn't enough! Of course it isn't enough you idiot if you spend it on alcohol and other stupid stuff. Sometimes I wonder if people think before they say these things.
I wish I could make people understand how lucky they are to have all these things the government offers. It's a pity that no matter how well things are around you, there is always something to complain about. Maybe it is us who should learn to be satisfied with the things we have!
Karpalo
Monday, January 30, 2012
More open-minded!
Ciao!
Some of my friends have been asking what karpalo means. Well, it is a little red berry that tastes awful (for more information go to google!). Some people used to call me karpalo, because my real name is Karoliina. Maybe they were trying to say something by calling me that way. I might look small and cute, but I can be a bit bitter and mean sometimes! Buahaha... :P
Actually, I am not as horrible as I used to be. Every time we start talking about my childhood, I always get to hear all the little details about how horrible I was.You see, I was nothing like my sister who was calm and an easy kid in general. I used to scream, blame my older siblings and do other cute things! :) Maybe that is the reason why my parents didn't want more kids after they had me! :P Nah...I don't think that's true, but I am thankfull that my parents still love me, even though I made their life a bit difficult when I was younger.
I have changed in many ways since then. I was talking about it with one of my friends today and she has noticed it aswell. If we don't count the changes in my personality, I will give you some examples of the little changes in everyday life. The first one is that I go to the gym. If somebody had told me two years ago that I would be going to the gym five times a week I would say "Yeah right! I would never do that!". I have always been the lazy one in my family. We had a bet with my brother in August that I would start going by bike everywhere for at least a month and that's what I did! Not only for one month but for two months! I used to bike at least 12 km every day. He still owes me those thirty euros he promised to give me!;)
Also, nowdays I love reading books which I used to hate when I was a kid! I always thought books were boring, but I never bothered to open one. Actually, my mom used to give me all that Finnish literature that was so boring (sorry mom D: ). So I thought that all books are like that. When I moved to Finland I started going to the library and suddenly I found books that I liked ( I just stayed away from the Finnish literature department!). That's how I started reading novels in english. Cecelia Ahern is one of my favourite authors, because the language she uses is so simple to understand. I read all her books in a short period which is huge for me, because reading 500 pages in english, isn't that easy. So you can call me a book freak now!
I have never been a very open-minded person and I regret being so negative about some things. Now that I have been trying new things I have seen some small changes in my personality aswell, which is strange. I am more organized and satisfied in my life.
So my last word for today is try new things! Be more open-minded! :)
Karpalo
We have had some snow in Finland! Yey! :)
Some of my friends have been asking what karpalo means. Well, it is a little red berry that tastes awful (for more information go to google!). Some people used to call me karpalo, because my real name is Karoliina. Maybe they were trying to say something by calling me that way. I might look small and cute, but I can be a bit bitter and mean sometimes! Buahaha... :P
Actually, I am not as horrible as I used to be. Every time we start talking about my childhood, I always get to hear all the little details about how horrible I was.You see, I was nothing like my sister who was calm and an easy kid in general. I used to scream, blame my older siblings and do other cute things! :) Maybe that is the reason why my parents didn't want more kids after they had me! :P Nah...I don't think that's true, but I am thankfull that my parents still love me, even though I made their life a bit difficult when I was younger.
I have changed in many ways since then. I was talking about it with one of my friends today and she has noticed it aswell. If we don't count the changes in my personality, I will give you some examples of the little changes in everyday life. The first one is that I go to the gym. If somebody had told me two years ago that I would be going to the gym five times a week I would say "Yeah right! I would never do that!". I have always been the lazy one in my family. We had a bet with my brother in August that I would start going by bike everywhere for at least a month and that's what I did! Not only for one month but for two months! I used to bike at least 12 km every day. He still owes me those thirty euros he promised to give me!;)
Also, nowdays I love reading books which I used to hate when I was a kid! I always thought books were boring, but I never bothered to open one. Actually, my mom used to give me all that Finnish literature that was so boring (sorry mom D: ). So I thought that all books are like that. When I moved to Finland I started going to the library and suddenly I found books that I liked ( I just stayed away from the Finnish literature department!). That's how I started reading novels in english. Cecelia Ahern is one of my favourite authors, because the language she uses is so simple to understand. I read all her books in a short period which is huge for me, because reading 500 pages in english, isn't that easy. So you can call me a book freak now!
I have never been a very open-minded person and I regret being so negative about some things. Now that I have been trying new things I have seen some small changes in my personality aswell, which is strange. I am more organized and satisfied in my life.
So my last word for today is try new things! Be more open-minded! :)
Karpalo
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Confused or just stressed?
Hey!
I have been a bit messed up lately, so I haven't been able to write for a while. This week has been very hectic and suddenly I feel like I am falling apart. I am glad everything is going to be over soon and maybe I should just relax and do my best for my exams. The only thing I can do now is just study, study, study!
I have to admit that I have been thinking about my future plans way too much lately. I know, that the last time I said about doing the things I want and following my dreams, and that is what I want to do. We only live once, but lately there is always an "if" in everything, like "what if my plans don't work out" or "what if I don't get a job" and so on...This stupid "if" pisses me off sometimes! I don't know about you, but for me it has been very difficult not to stress about my future. I wish I could focus on this day and stop stressing about everything! I am only eighteen, there is no need to stress about every little thing in life!
I have always been like my dad. I am super sensitive and I tend to stress a lot! Thank God that my dad has learned to stress less and enjoy every day, and I have been trying to do the same. I am glad that I have made some progress these past two years and I am proud of myself. My mom always tells me that I there is no use on thinking about the future too much, because you never know what might happen, and I agree. When my father was diagnosed that he had a brain tumor, we didn't expect it and we had to learn live with it. It brought us closer as a family and we realised that you can never take something for granted, not even your health.
So what, if my plans don't go exactly the way I wanted! Something unexpected can happen and that's okay! After all, things might turn out better than I thought! :)
Have a great Saturday night!
Karpalo
I have been a bit messed up lately, so I haven't been able to write for a while. This week has been very hectic and suddenly I feel like I am falling apart. I am glad everything is going to be over soon and maybe I should just relax and do my best for my exams. The only thing I can do now is just study, study, study!
I have to admit that I have been thinking about my future plans way too much lately. I know, that the last time I said about doing the things I want and following my dreams, and that is what I want to do. We only live once, but lately there is always an "if" in everything, like "what if my plans don't work out" or "what if I don't get a job" and so on...This stupid "if" pisses me off sometimes! I don't know about you, but for me it has been very difficult not to stress about my future. I wish I could focus on this day and stop stressing about everything! I am only eighteen, there is no need to stress about every little thing in life!
I have always been like my dad. I am super sensitive and I tend to stress a lot! Thank God that my dad has learned to stress less and enjoy every day, and I have been trying to do the same. I am glad that I have made some progress these past two years and I am proud of myself. My mom always tells me that I there is no use on thinking about the future too much, because you never know what might happen, and I agree. When my father was diagnosed that he had a brain tumor, we didn't expect it and we had to learn live with it. It brought us closer as a family and we realised that you can never take something for granted, not even your health.
So what, if my plans don't go exactly the way I wanted! Something unexpected can happen and that's okay! After all, things might turn out better than I thought! :)
Have a great Saturday night!
Karpalo
Monday, January 23, 2012
Depressed
Hello!
It is Monday once again and it is pretty much my favourite day, because I had only three hours of school!(yey!) Can't believe how these three years have gone by so fast! This is my last week of school and I couldn't be more excited! I have had my good and bad moments while I have been here and today I thought it would be good to share my "bad" experiences with you...It isn't easy for me to talk about this, but I think I am finally ready to write about everything that happened to me last year.
I don't even know from where to start so maybe I will just start from the beginning. I guess everything started in autumn 2010, I had been for one year in Finland and everything seemed to be going well. I had spent the summer in Greece and suddenly when I came back to Finland, it felt like nobody wanted to spend time with me anymore. People seemed to be so busy and I didn't have a really close friend at the time, plus I had difficulties adjusting to the finnish culture and everything. So I found myself a hobby to keep me busy and that is when I started dance lessons again. For a while it helped, but I couldn't believe how my friends could be so "blind" and not see how lonely I felt. Of course, now that I look back, I can't blame them, because I looked happy on the outside, but I was truly miserable on the inside.
So I just left time pass and didn't do anything about all these feelings I had (which I don't recommend to anyone!). I kept acting like everything was okay, but it surely wasn't. What made me get even more annoyed, was the fact that I was always the first one to ask my friends out and do something. So in the end I got sick of all that. I stopped going out, kept myself closed in my room and that's how things got worse. Maybe, if I had talked about my problems from the beginning, I wouldn't have felt so awful in the end.
Christmas came and I kept feeling the way I felt. Going home for the holidays helped me a bit to forget my problems, but when I came back to Finland everything was the same. I started getting really depressed. School wasn't going very well and I was very tired all the time. I thought nobody in this world cared about me. I was crying every day and wishing for all this to end. I remember sometimes I had to call my parents in the middle of the night to calm me down. I had never felt that horrible in my life and I hope that nobody gets to experience something like that.
In January 2011 my mom got in touch with my headmaster and they talked about my situation. I couldn't have stayed any longer in Finland or I would have gone crazy! If that situation had kept going like that I am afraid I would have hurt myself or done something even worse. So my parents thought it would be good for me to go back to Greece for a month and clear things out. Also before I left Finland, I went to our school psychologist who really helped make some right decisions.
Going back home really helped me calm down and rethink everything. Because I had difficulties telling my friends face to face about my problems, I decided to send them a letter and that's what I did. That letter helped me and my friends come closer. At first they got mad at me, because I hadn't said anything earlier, but I think I wouldn't have been very honest with them, if I had told them earlier.
Now that I am over that phase, I have learned to talk about the things that bother me early enough. Nobody else can know what is going on inside your head unless you tell them. Don't be afraid to talk just spit it out! :P
In my case I thought everything would get better on their own...maybe in a perffect world that would have happened!
I have learned from my mistakes and I hope that my story helped you realize some things about life!
Compared to last year I feel like I am alive again! I enjoy every day and I couldn't be happier :)
I wish the best to all of you!
Have a great week! :)
Karpalo
It is Monday once again and it is pretty much my favourite day, because I had only three hours of school!(yey!) Can't believe how these three years have gone by so fast! This is my last week of school and I couldn't be more excited! I have had my good and bad moments while I have been here and today I thought it would be good to share my "bad" experiences with you...It isn't easy for me to talk about this, but I think I am finally ready to write about everything that happened to me last year.
I don't even know from where to start so maybe I will just start from the beginning. I guess everything started in autumn 2010, I had been for one year in Finland and everything seemed to be going well. I had spent the summer in Greece and suddenly when I came back to Finland, it felt like nobody wanted to spend time with me anymore. People seemed to be so busy and I didn't have a really close friend at the time, plus I had difficulties adjusting to the finnish culture and everything. So I found myself a hobby to keep me busy and that is when I started dance lessons again. For a while it helped, but I couldn't believe how my friends could be so "blind" and not see how lonely I felt. Of course, now that I look back, I can't blame them, because I looked happy on the outside, but I was truly miserable on the inside.
So I just left time pass and didn't do anything about all these feelings I had (which I don't recommend to anyone!). I kept acting like everything was okay, but it surely wasn't. What made me get even more annoyed, was the fact that I was always the first one to ask my friends out and do something. So in the end I got sick of all that. I stopped going out, kept myself closed in my room and that's how things got worse. Maybe, if I had talked about my problems from the beginning, I wouldn't have felt so awful in the end.
Christmas came and I kept feeling the way I felt. Going home for the holidays helped me a bit to forget my problems, but when I came back to Finland everything was the same. I started getting really depressed. School wasn't going very well and I was very tired all the time. I thought nobody in this world cared about me. I was crying every day and wishing for all this to end. I remember sometimes I had to call my parents in the middle of the night to calm me down. I had never felt that horrible in my life and I hope that nobody gets to experience something like that.
In January 2011 my mom got in touch with my headmaster and they talked about my situation. I couldn't have stayed any longer in Finland or I would have gone crazy! If that situation had kept going like that I am afraid I would have hurt myself or done something even worse. So my parents thought it would be good for me to go back to Greece for a month and clear things out. Also before I left Finland, I went to our school psychologist who really helped make some right decisions.
Going back home really helped me calm down and rethink everything. Because I had difficulties telling my friends face to face about my problems, I decided to send them a letter and that's what I did. That letter helped me and my friends come closer. At first they got mad at me, because I hadn't said anything earlier, but I think I wouldn't have been very honest with them, if I had told them earlier.
Now that I am over that phase, I have learned to talk about the things that bother me early enough. Nobody else can know what is going on inside your head unless you tell them. Don't be afraid to talk just spit it out! :P
In my case I thought everything would get better on their own...maybe in a perffect world that would have happened!
I have learned from my mistakes and I hope that my story helped you realize some things about life!
Compared to last year I feel like I am alive again! I enjoy every day and I couldn't be happier :)
I wish the best to all of you!
Have a great week! :)
Karpalo
Friday, January 20, 2012
Follow my heart
Hello everybody!
This has been a lovely week even though I have been very busy! Being busy is good though, because you don't have time to get bored! :P Also... I applied for a job today, so I am really really really hoping they will answer me soon! I will try to contact other places too, but I am going one step at a time. :)
I am glad you (or at least some of you) liked the post I wrote on Monday, but I am sure most of you have thought about these things before, so maybe I will keep writing about my personal life!
So today I would like to write about my future plans! Me and my friends have been talking about this subject for a while now, so I thought it would be nice to tell you about my dreams. Every time when people ask me what I want to do after I finish school, the answer is always the same " I want to go to Spain"! Usually most young people, at least in Greece, say they want to go study something and then, if lucky enough, get a job. So when I say to people about my plans they look at me like if I was crazy or something! It is my dream to learn Spanish and no matter what other people think I am going to Spain!!! My whole life I have been doing what my parents or teachers have told me to do and I am soooo sick of it! I have only one life and I want to live it the way I want!
I have been going to school for 13 years and I deserve to do once in my life something that I want! What is the point of going straight to college or university anyways?? Should there be on order how things should be done? Of course not! I want to do things my way which means stop caring about other people's opinions!
I am happy for my sister who got married young and studies something she really loves, but it feels that my parents want me to follow the steps of my older siblings. What if I am not meant to do things the same way?
I don't feel ready to go study something and I am so sick of studying in general! That is why I am going to Spain! A new culture, new people, a new city, a new language...new everything! I need a break from the things I know and the things I have already seen. I don't want to live a life full of regrets. You never know what obstacles life can bring, so why keep on waiting to do something later while you can do it now?
For a change I would like to be unreasonable and follow my heart! It's important to fulfill my dreams and do something exciting and spontaneous for once! I have the rest of my life for studies so why such a hurry? :P
Okay....I will stop writing now! I get too excited each time and don't know how to stop! :D
I hope you all have a lovely weekend and don't stop smiling :)
Karpalo
This has been a lovely week even though I have been very busy! Being busy is good though, because you don't have time to get bored! :P Also... I applied for a job today, so I am really really really hoping they will answer me soon! I will try to contact other places too, but I am going one step at a time. :)
I am glad you (or at least some of you) liked the post I wrote on Monday, but I am sure most of you have thought about these things before, so maybe I will keep writing about my personal life!
So today I would like to write about my future plans! Me and my friends have been talking about this subject for a while now, so I thought it would be nice to tell you about my dreams. Every time when people ask me what I want to do after I finish school, the answer is always the same " I want to go to Spain"! Usually most young people, at least in Greece, say they want to go study something and then, if lucky enough, get a job. So when I say to people about my plans they look at me like if I was crazy or something! It is my dream to learn Spanish and no matter what other people think I am going to Spain!!! My whole life I have been doing what my parents or teachers have told me to do and I am soooo sick of it! I have only one life and I want to live it the way I want!
I have been going to school for 13 years and I deserve to do once in my life something that I want! What is the point of going straight to college or university anyways?? Should there be on order how things should be done? Of course not! I want to do things my way which means stop caring about other people's opinions!
I am happy for my sister who got married young and studies something she really loves, but it feels that my parents want me to follow the steps of my older siblings. What if I am not meant to do things the same way?
I don't feel ready to go study something and I am so sick of studying in general! That is why I am going to Spain! A new culture, new people, a new city, a new language...new everything! I need a break from the things I know and the things I have already seen. I don't want to live a life full of regrets. You never know what obstacles life can bring, so why keep on waiting to do something later while you can do it now?
For a change I would like to be unreasonable and follow my heart! It's important to fulfill my dreams and do something exciting and spontaneous for once! I have the rest of my life for studies so why such a hurry? :P
Okay....I will stop writing now! I get too excited each time and don't know how to stop! :D
I hope you all have a lovely weekend and don't stop smiling :)
Karpalo
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